Tag: ptsd

Facing My Rapist: The Final Chapter of My Healing

My hands are sweaty and my heart is racing. Just a second ago I heard people talking and laughing, honking cars and city sounds. All of sudden my entire world stood still. The only thing I could feel was the pounding of my racing  heart beat. How are you? he said. HOW AM I? Being […]

Reclaiming My Body | Self Empowerment After Trauma

I was sitting at the kitchen table when my dad told me a story about a woman whose husband showed up to the school she teaches at and beat her. I expressed my anger but as soon as my dad left, my eyes filled with tears. These are the tears of the Womb(man). The raping. […]

The Effects of Rape No One Will Talk About

April is was sexual assault awareness month and I’ve wanted to do a rape awareness project every year for the last few years. I tried but no one wants to talk about rape. I get it; there is a lot of shame that comes with being a rape victim survivor. I don’t want to talk […]

Why Rejection and Abandonment Are So Hard

About two weekends ago I made an attempt to go out. I actually went out. I was around some really cool people and I was like “yea this is great, I’m out, I’m meeting people this is great!” I started to get this tinge of anxiety but I was determined to ignore it. I thought […]

Intimacy: Using, Being Used and What I Really Want

I was driving to work this morning when I started talking out loud: “Dear Universe, Dear God, Dear Great Grandma, Dear Guardian Angels… I’m a little irritated this morning. I’m not actually mad at him. I’m mad at myself. I hurt myself. I gave a piece of my spirit, my energy, my body to someone […]

Lets Get Really Vulnerable: A New Chapter

I haven’t written in months! Writing is one of those things that sets me on fire and calms my racing spirit all at the same time. For a long time I used this blog for work, for fitness but I felt like there were things I couldn’t write about. What would my readers think? Was […]

How to Love When You’ve Been Hurt

How to heal when you’ve been hurt so that you can move on to accepting love the way you know it should be. In the videos below are my 5 tips of how to love when you’ve been hurt: And part 2: I hope this helps. Peace and Love ~Nelao  

The Best ‘Bad Day’ Ever and 4 Tips to Feeling Better

I sometimes struggle with this false idea that things are supposed to be easy and if they are not, something has gone terribly wrong. I tend to think this way when it comes to relationships with others and especially when it comes to my relationship with myself. I’m working on it. I’ve been reading the blog Big […]